She made my day!

Another weekday started with too many things running in my mind.With all hustle and bustle I managed to get into a heavily crowded bus to Parrys. I got into the bus from the front way in, there is this habit of passing the change to ppl after ppl so that it reaches the conductor sitting at the last and he issues the ticket.So i had to pass the change to the lady who stood beside me.To my awe, this lady with a filthy grimace looked at me as if I passed a dead rat on her hand!This obviously irked my morning temperament.People in bigger cities tend to be quite arrogant and violent no wonder this city is an exemption.I will be tagged either "greedy" or "insane" if I had to expect each and everybody under the sun to be good to me.Tided by these thoughts,I was looking out of the window as I passed the RIPON BUILDING, suddenly an innocent child sitting in the front pressed by hands.I removed my earphones to ask her want she wanted.with a huge radiant smile she pointed to her wrist and asked what! At the mere sight of this child, I started smiling at her and the ice is broken.Unfortunately, I forgot to wear my watch so I had to action her back that I did not wear my watch today!:-(This sweet little lady, seemed to be a bit disappointed and actioned back "Cellphone irukkula time ennanu sollunga"..Hearing this I was totally blown away I was having a mobile in my hand but lacked the presence of mind to check the time in it! But this sweet darling quickly made me realise what I failed to think. I once again actioned her with my 10 fingers that it was "10'o clock".She smiled at me atleast ten times in ten seconds and again started shooting her questions "Enga porenga" I said: "Parrys" ,"velaikku porengala" I said" amaam da velaikkudhaan poren";"parrysla enga"?I replied "YMCA Buildingla";"YMCA Building ah? ennakku nalla theriyume!";I replied:"oh-ho!";and again "enna velapakarenga"?? I replied;"unnakku sonna puriyadhey da!""ellam puriyum neenga sollunga!" to my amazement she understood my job profile with effortless ease. And finally this cute little girl was so friendly that she gave her hands for a warm handshake telling "en peru Durga devi".Again I was put to shame coz it created a feeling that I should have asked her name first! with not a second left to delay I quickly took a snap of durga who brought out lot of joy in me.

There is something very attractive in Durga. It is her warm friendly nature. It is the joy that seems to fill her. It is her low level of ego and self consciousness. It is her not so crooked and scheming mind.It is her open,straight and transparent mind. It could be her vulnerability. It is my own amazement and wonder at seeing God's blessing in the form of a child.And yes, Durga devi made my day!!!

And, when you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it.

and it is very true when i realize what is happening in my life right now. I know this is the decision I have to take at this time but the fear that it might be a wrong decision is threatening me.Recently I decided on 'something'.This decision of mine made me stop eating, sleeping, working and it is like a 'mosquito-bite' sucked my thoughts and caused a serious inflammation in my mind!.The inflammation caused by this bite is working in its own way to get healed.
I started talking to many people and find ways to get that 'something' I really wanted.In due course, I found them suggesting me the kind of life I must lead;lot of free advices and all the best possible spiritual quotes of leading a desire-less life. Shucks! Am I really that greedy or am I not understanding the travails of others!! Everyone seems to have a clear idea of how other people should lead their lives, but none about his or her own.After a careful retrospection I did realize that we can never judge the lives of others, because each person knows only their own pain and renunciation. It's one thing to feel that you are on the right path, but it's another to think that yours is the only path.Truly speaking, in finding solution to this 'something' I feel both' euphoric' and 'depressed' because the persons I gave least importance in my life is running to help me out and the persons whom I considered really important in my life have his/her own priorities to work on!Given a situation, being judgmental about a person is truly absurd!..Different persons play different roles at different times in conspiring you to get 'something' you really want out of your life!